it being painful

I would say, Listen, this is the only way I can do it, so get off my back. I actually went deeper in many cases than he wanted me to.

So I think I knew from the outset how hard it was going to be, but that doesn’t mean that I didn’t get upset about how fucking painful it was at times. I did. But then again, I dealt with it.

The big crying scene at the end wasn’t the most painful for me. It was actually a release of pressure.