Sonnets/Unrealities XI

Basically, there’s ’Sonnets’, and they have many unrealities, and this is reality number 11. It’s like a chunk of poems, and this is one of them. It’s kind of him taking the piss of himself, when you make up things that scare you out of nowhere - you’re just paranoid. In this particular case it’s about him being madly in love with a girl, things are totally euphoric and couldn’t be more perfect, and then his mind starts playing games on him. He starts imagining, what if, in five years time or something, she sould meet someone else, and how he would deal with that. He asks his girlfriend then ; in five years time, when she meets and falls in love with someone else, and will smell his hair and kiss him and be naked with him and all these things - could she please tell him gently, and then he would go up to her new lover and wish him good luck with his new girlfriend, take his hand and wish him all the happiness in the world, and then walk away. It’s sort of "how hard can you make it on yourself", you know ? I just think it was sort of funny, because it happens - the few times in your life when you feel you’ve got it right, your mind start going off on "what happens if this goes wrong ?" and this feeling of carrying a chinese vase across a motorway... "oh it’s definitely gonna break, I know it’s gonna break", and you make it up in your head when everything is actually OK.

XFM interview, August 25 2004